Thursday and Friday were difficult days. Dwayne's medication combination was causing great agitation and anxiety for his body and emotions. He was not lucid and so conversation was minimal. On Thursday afternoon he asked for the elders to come and pray and anoint him with oil for healing. Amazingly within minutes several of our church leaders showed up at his room, all without a single phone call. We prayed in faith. God promises that all things work together for good...but it is the last part of the verse that is really important, and sometimes we miss that part. "For those who are called according to His purpose". God will fulfill His purposes, but not necessarily according to our requests.
Dwayne was not miraculously healed. Today, however, the doctors were able to change his meds and his mind was clear. He had very significant conversations with each of our children. Ashlynn is leaving for camp tomorrow, as per our joint decision, and so he said goodbye to her. Dwayne and I had some very beautiful moments together as well. We talked about his service, and what some of his wishes are. We tell each other often that we love each other.
Thank you again for your prayers. God is still able to heal...but we also want to finish well.
Life is an adventure, a journey we travel. And God walks it with us - hand in hand if we let Him. Guiding, shaping, and molding us through the circumstances. I seek to journey more intentionally here.
Saturday, August 13, 2005